As I stare at her beautiful face and feel so content and full of love. Magical, that is how I would describe looking into my daughters beautiful eyes. With each child I fell in love differently, but this child was the most surprising love of all. She is the child that will complete my family and gave me one of the best gifts I could ever dream of. It wasn’t until the day she turned one month that it dawned on me why I felt this special connection to her….
Hello there, quickly wanted to let you know before reading this post that it goes into detail of the passing of my son. This personal post more than any other has helped me to heal and I am grateful for the opportunity to share my strength in grief and “The Bad Days” Thank you for all your love and support, Trina MarieGrief… Does it ever end!? In my opinion it does not. You may deal with your grief better over time, you accept it and you move forward the best way you can. The way I feel overall has changed with time, but that one feeling of emptiness is always there. This emptiness is a feeling of a completely shattered human being and is the worst pain I can imagine. Every now and then, unexpectedly that pain hits me, just when I thought I was beginning to feel normal again. The truth, normal doesn’t exists anymore and the sooner I accept that the sooner I can continue to process this horrible pain….
Snakes and snails and puppy dog tails, check and check! The princess I’ve been waiting for is in the making and myself, I’m on cloud nine. Still shocked too, never thought I would have that girl I’ve always dreamed of having. Happy to announce this little girls name will be Katia, a name I have loved for many years….
I was driving in the car one afternoon with my son Patryk. The sky was bright and sunny, it was one of those days everything seemed to be going smoothly. We had so many days that were unexpectedly changed in an instance due to Patryk’s unexplained health issues. Normally I would get this feeling when things were about to go wrong right before they actually did. I was usually right about my intuitions even though I did not want to be. On this day I did not have any ill feelings and felt happy, until I was shocked, speechless and moved by my four and half year old….
Where to begin…I’m Pregnant! This is the first pregnancy I didn’t jump for joy and scream it to the world the second I found out. That is because I joined a special group, one that no one ever wants to be in. I joined the many woman who have suffered a miscarriage. Not only was I hit with one emotional turmoil, but within one year I suffered two early miscarriages. Boy did that take a tole on my heart. We went through a few tests to make sure it was safe to continue to try and conceive, all the results came back great. Regardless of the positive results I made a decision to put getting pregnant on hold for a year. I wanted to take time to do something that I’ve always wanted to do, but never had the courage. Here I am and have started my own website as a food blogger. Enjoying every step being so excited and overjoyed with the fun of this project, I was in complete shock to find out one month into it I was pregnant. Wanting to be excited, but I just couldn’t. I had just started a pretty time consuming project that I was loving. Also I was scared, I couldn’t endure another miscarriage, my heart just can’t take anymore loss….