I was putting my daughter to sleep when a wave of horrendous pain hit my chest at full force. I quickly started trying to think of why? What is bringing on this current wave of grief? I had to finish putting my daughter to sleep so I attempted to distract myself from the ball of fire pitted deep in my heart attempting to radiate out of my body. Feeling as if I was going to implode, I began contemplating what could be bringing on this current wave of grief. Why in this moment of peace am I struck so deep? I felt chills, as if Patryk was standing right there with me, looking over me and trying to tell me why. Then all at once it hit me and I realized why grief was visiting me in that very moment….